I've never been a huge fan of game-playing. My efforts always failed (I'm transparent, yo), I never made it out unembarrassed, and I've almost always been called out when attempting it. I'm quite the gullible character, though, so it isn't hard to fuck with my head. Harmless toying used to turn problematic for me at the drop of a hat.
I don't find that to be the case anymore. Whether it's a new maturity, dealing with a different age group, or I'm just plain better at it; whatever the reason, I am now a formidable opponent. Concerning the battle of wits and wills, I am a patient woman. A very practiced amount of nonchalance and a poker face so flat you could deal a hand on it have given my old issues the boot.
That isn't to say I'm a huge fan of the game, either. In all honesty, it's still manipulation with a capital 'M', no matter how you try to spin it. However innocent or exciting it may be, there is still a line being crossed in regard to the level of respect one earns and deserves in the relationship. You are still forsaking a transparent honesty that is so rare to find in a partner - for this specific reason, of course. Because as I've already said, there is an allure and seduction associated with head games. Power struggles can be like fully clothed sex if the right sparring partner is involved.
I've got games on the brain today for obvious reasons. There is a baiting attempt taking place as I type this. As I mentioned, I can dish it just as well as anyone else, but my patience is unusually thin today. Also taking into consideration the fact that an extremely new relationship should rarely warrant the use of game-playing as a communication tactic, today's thoughts have come to an inevitable conclusion:
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